The last smile

Last few days is a hardest day for me,
and also will be the last smile that my families will saw on my smile.
All because of my eldest brother,
which makes me like that.
And every night I slept in tears,
I didn't even slept in my own room.
I slept at the top floor of my house, so everyone wont disturb me.

Then on Saturday,
I cant take it anymore of the way my brother behave.
I was trying to killed myself, by taking every kind of medicine that my house had.
I know is a stupid decisions.
But I had think about it quite a long time..
And it didn't not came out the way I had plan,
in exchange...
I got a fever..

At night, my whole families was finding me,
they sacred that I had (H1N1)..
I told them that i had a normal fever,
And i dont think so that my eldest brother knew that I had a fever.
And i dont even think that why I had a fever by sudden..
It is because of the stress that I cannot take it anymore from my brother.

Sunday~
After my Dhama School,
I reached home and immediately when upstairs..
Didn't go out eat lunch with my brother..
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And more, dont feel like writting out..